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Andrea, 280196Hey hey. My name is Andrea. In this funny little world of mine, everythind actually exist. I am not the type to leave my life by the book, I LOVE to explore new things. I won't say that i Love my life, but maybe i am just another typical angel cum devil fallen from the sky to give you life. I am a Shinigami . I decide what is to happen to you next. I LOVE my Friends and Family. Touch them and you are equal to I am not a prefect person, i make mistakes here and there. Don't Judge me for what i am but who i am. If you have nothing to say SHUTUP or you would most likely want to click on the Scream
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Saturday, May 22, 2010
Feeling really really really really unhappy lately. Its like so many things happening in one week. Is it pure unluckiness or is it just me? I feel like there are so many unhappiness that i feel like telling someone. But i just dont want to. Mummy's feeling pain all over. I want to do a little something for her. I sweep, mop, clear and pack the house everyday. I wash the dishes, clean the table and throw the rubbish. My hands and legs are hurting. I keep knocking against stuff lately. My sister wouldnt help, always coming out with excuses to skip the chores. But i cannot tell my displeasure to her, shw would feel unhappy. My brother only knows how to mess things up. I really am tired. I dont wish to see my mom feeling pain all over, Thats why i have decided on something. But it's a secret. I am just wondering how long can i take this. My body really aches real bad after doing all the chores along. I finally knows how my mom feels. Ugh. And then i feel like i am such a failure. All my results sucks and my life is getting so bad. I can literally end it. I just want to go to a peaceful seaside and scream. Pressure. Pretending to be happy sucks cause everybody just thinks you are so good. Nobody actually understand anything. Can life get any better? Cause when i am calling out really loud for someone to help me, i am left alone in this cruel reality. Somehow or rather, i have been really eating alot of sweets lately, especially coke lollipops. They actually can make me feel better. Miraculously. I am not complaining about my life. Just that i dont like being pushed around. Just because i am younger or i dont hold a higher status. I want to make my own decisions, saddly cant. I am not those sort to let things go easily. You can say and i can forgive or ignore however it is hard for me to forget. You might not have said it on purpose or what so ever but it really hurt my self esteem. If hurting can kill, i think i would have died by now. Just that i dont want to leavr this world. So many things that i cannot let go off. I have heard a radio DJ saying that somtimes the smartess thing to do is to let go and move on. What which to let go? It is sad that god didnt potray me as perfect as her. Just a person to go along with everything. I cant believe that i can still find a reason for living. So many things... Just because i am dumb? just because i am as perfect? just because i am not as well behave? Just because i am different? Just because... I guess it would be a sin to be me. And i am a SIN... Just because i am me... |
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